This morning my eyes were opened,once again, to how blessed I am.
I had sunk into a dark space last week as I struggled with inner fears and doubts that nearly incapacitated me in my down time. A coldness, both literally and figuratively, drove me to want to just hide under the blanket and mull my ‘misfortune;’ however, my thinking was scattered and fractured more than thoughtful and worthwhile. It seemed so bleak. It was good to have places and responsibilities that required me to push down the struggles, temporarily. But. I knew I could not sustain such an existence. So I prayed the most simplistic of prayers: Jesus.
This morning, God opened my eyes to the grand blessing He has given me in that simplistic prayer. He showed me how He was cradling me with His tender mercy, forgiveness, and great love as I “felt” I was sinking away, unable to think, feel, or pray. Perhaps this was a winter period, where my faith and God’s promises were securely and snuggly protected from the onslaught of intellectual and emotional attacks by the ‘snow’ covering of the name of Jesus. He showed me how He has super-glued me to the name of Jesus and He is enough. His promises are like snow — a reserve of potential energy for sustaining life and growth. At the right time, the timing of God’s, His Holy Spirit warms up a needed promise I’ve kept in my heart/mind*; with it He refreshes my soul and prepares me to bring Him glory with my life.
Today, I dance with the snow! Through the night, the temperatures remained very cold and the sky let fall a thick covering of fresh snow. The dry flakes joined in the wind’s frenzy, being whipped up and tossed about in a dance under the two-sundog adorned morning sky. As my tires crunched and squeaked through the packed flakes on the concrete, my soul continued to soar with appreciation for this wintery delight. Then, they flew through piles of snowflakes gathered on the gravel road, sending flakes flying with the wind — ooooh, such fun delight! Oh, how wonderful and blessed it is to see the goodness in the day. Oh how wonderful it is to know how solidly God is there — always. How wonderful it is to be super-glued to Jesus.
Today my heart dances as the snow does — lively and as if on a mission — for it is, to be filled with the joy of knowing Christ Jesus.
*This proves to me the value of daily reading, meditating, copying down, and even memorizing the Word of God…
“The rain and snow come down from the heavens and stay on the ground to water the earth. They cause the grain to grow, producing seed for the farmer and bread for the hungry.
It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it. You will live in joy and peace. The mountains and hills will burst into song, and the trees of the field will clap their hands!
Where once there were thorns, cypress trees will grow. Where nettles grew, myrtles will sprout up. These events will bring great honor to the Lord’s name; they will be an everlasting sign of His power and love.”
My heart has been captivated by its Creator! Not because He took it by force and now controls it ruthlessly. Rather, piece by piece I have humbly handed it over to Him and gently and tenderly God has accepted each piece, no matter the size. He miraculously holds my offerings in His hands, mending and re-shaping while patiently waiting for all the other pieces.
What amazes me is that while I continue to grasp onto pieces like a small child clutches a tattered security blankie, God allows me to benefit from whatever amount I have submitted to Him. He is not satisfied with piecemeal and He is persistent in wooing me to submission. But, even so, He delights in blessing whatever He holds captive.
This blog is about that amazing draw God puts on our hearts. It is not a place for me to talk about my weaknesses and triumphs. It is simply a recording of the revelation God has given me into His boundless love and creativity! I, like most everyone I suppose, prefer to focus on that incredible love and creativity of the Jehovah God. But I am compelled here to point out He reveals His justice with equal passion. Without the Holiness of God and His judgment, His love and creativity would be cheapened and lose a great amount of value.
God abhors sin. Simply put, sin is a refusal to remember or to submit to who God is. Sin in our hearts manifests itself in our thoughts and then our actions: the gossip, the envy, the arrogant pride are all very real sin. It all starts in our hearts and that is why I allow mine to be held captive by its Creator – only He can mold and shape it so that it beats with a satisfied rhythm of holiness.
When our hearts are shaped by God’s hands, our empathies and desires to do good for others actually produce sweet fruit for God’s eternal kingdom. Without His Spirit, our efforts are simply in vain, they are a temporary fix that erodes away.
The thoughts of the wicked are shamefully vile and exceedingly offensive to the LORD, but the words of the pure are pleasing words to Him. – Proverbs 15:26
A word fitly spoken is like apples of gold in settings silver. –Proverbs 15:2